Life is a crazy thing. It controls you all the time no matter what it is. I work a full time Job, co-own a business (Gay Night Club) with My boyfriend/Husband. Life does not exist. Its Rough. Tiring. And sometimes overwhelming. We do have some good moments. We do things when we can together. But money wise, it's just not there.
What I hate the most is how I have employees, that cry they live check to check, they can't lose their job because they would fall flat on their face. But then again, These same people Wont do what the are told.
I have been going through some real shitty depression because of my sister's cancer. The Job I have, and the lack of support I feel I am not getting from anyone including my husband. I just don't know how to handle this all. I at times feel suicidal. All My Husband says to me is go see a doctor. That's the advice I get. With no love behind it. He doesn't tell me he loves me, shows no affection, and I don't know why. I have said at times I just wish it would all end...me .... end... and I got a shut up, don't talk like that. Not, what can I do to help out, babe it will get better, let's go for help. I get nothing but a shut up!
My life right now in a nutshell
~Johnny
