Sunday, February 26, 2017

The Birth of Liam Steele

     Hey there friends!!
It's been a while since I have written in my blog. A lot has happened since then. Geez, what can I tell you? Well, my ex is still a lying officious prick. His new Boyfriend is a sneaky, squirmy, lying homewrecker. But he's just like my ex. He will manipulate a situation however he can to get what he wants. A perfect couple!! They can use each other and abuse each other mentally until the end. They deserve to be happy together. :)

     Ok Back to my Birth!.... Liam Steele. I created Liam because of my job. My employees have been trying to search me out on Facebook and other social media, so I changed my name so they couldn't find me.

     Now, Liam Steele was a fun name so I decided to use it further, for my personal training endeavors. That was going to be the name of my business, "Liam Steele Personal Training". It just sounded right.That all because I started working out over a year ago because I was considered Obese. Yes the Dr said I was in obese mode. No, I did not say beast mode, I said obese mode. That's when I knew I needed to get into BEAST mode. So I signed up at a gym, and worked my ass off. Let me tell you it payed off!! I am now in the process of becoming a personal trainer, going to open my own business for personal training, and at the same time, help myself get into better shape. Sometimes I think I am crazy!! Especially at 50. But age is a number. Yes, we will all die at some point, but why not prolong it? If I can be healthy, physically fit, and able to get around no problem, I want to live to be 100!!

     So, starting in June, I will be Launching "Liam Steele Personal Training" That is the target date. I am excited to start this new way of life, and be happy. FINALLY BE HAPPY. That's all I wanted before with my husband. But it wasn't enough for him. His Loss!! All I have now is the future and the Future is mine!!

Thursday, January 12, 2017

A poem about my love and my ex...

Why do I beat myself up
because I had the courage to love
gave all of myself in hopes that he was the one
Why do I beat myself up
When it was his choice to be unfaithful
His choice to hurt me
Why do I beat myself up
Knowing that I had done everything for him
supported him, comforted him,
loved him more than I loved myself
Why after his lies and deceit
Should I still love him? And want him to love me?
Why after the repeat of hurt and trust being lost
do I think that he deserves a love as pure as mine
Why do I beat myself up
over what I could have done better
when I knew deep down there was nothing
What makes me search for answers as to why
when they will not change the past
Nor mend my broken heart
Why when a man decides to cheat do we blame ourselves?
Why does it make us question every little detail about who we are
Make us think that we are not worthy of love
Why when a man cheats do we still long for him to change
Realize how wrong he was, and fall in love with us again
Why do I beat myself up
When I deserve more
When all that I have done is loved someone completely
Give myself time and the pain will subside
and the mourning will cease
I will see that I am still me
Still wonderful, beautiful me
Nothing has changed except my experience in love
And my determination to share love with another
As I can never truly love someone until I learn to love myself.