Why does Love have to play games with the heart?

Why does love have to play games with the heart?


This is something I have been asking myself from the time I could understand what being in Love meant.

But there comes a time in Life, where there is one special person, that after a while when you have been hanging around them, you both realize "The spark" that happens when you both first touch each other in a certain way and you both feel at at the exact same time. LOVE! Falling in love. It's true that one that feels that can be afraid of that and would not be able to admit it. Maybe because they never had that feeling before, or have never truly been loved by someone to where they feel that in their heart.
   
     Teddy was one that felt that way. After 3 months of being together, he always said he didn't want to be in a relationship. The problem with Teddy is he did everything, and treated me like we were in one. It made me eventually fall in love with him. Then the Surprise. He asked me to be his boyfriend, and of course I said yes. It was great! And that was a BIG hurdle for Ted to get over doing. Because he said he couldn't be in a relationship. But a week later, Teddy broke it off because he felt overwhelmed due to the fact he was worried about me because I just dealt with having my brother Pass away in my home. Which, Teddy was the first one by my side when it happened. He checked up on me, came to stay over at my house to make sure I didn't feel lonely. While all this was going on, Theo started not doing the things he loved to do. Friends, the gym, and what ever extracurricular activities he may have been involved with. He was losing himself. He was exhausted. Because of me. It broke my heart...HARD!
Well he has left me, and said good bye and wanted to be left alone. Which means I will never see him again which hurts because he saved my life. I lost him forever and it was my fault. My heart aches, and I don't know how to recover from this. But it will have to be just part of my recovery.

     Theo, all I can say I miss you, and love you and I understand. I'm Sorry!



Always,
"Your Superman"
Johnny